MD and its affect on my daily life
I have had MD for 5-6 years now (21M) I feel like i have a constant noise that wont turn off and it’s in-fact the default state my mind rests in . I feel like i have to pull myself out if that state to get anything done. It is affecting my agency and making me numb sort of . I feel like i am directing all that energy inwardly that should be spent doing things. Also it leads to cognitive bias when we confirm our already existing beliefs so much so that it conditions our brain in such a way that its hard for us to tell the difference between our beliefs and what is actually true. I spend so much time creating situation where i am a more confident and better version of myself that in real life it works opposite i cave in to fit other peoples version of me or the version i have been conditioned to have . I feel like its my entire personality and i would be a much different person without MD much better person. Also i wonder if its effect and not cause and if that is true the cause would be lack of courage to experiment in social situations .