So, for context, she and I broke up around mid-April. She dumped me because of long distance, as well as the fact that she felt like she wasn’t happy. I tried to be there for her as much as possible, but she was always set on her decision.
We tried no contact after a week, but during that time she kept stalking me on everything, so I tried to reach out and understand the reason for the breakup. During that time we ended up sexting and even calling, and I felt like I was being led on, so I shut it down.
Fast forward to a week after no contact, I reached out to ask her to delete some pictures of me. It turns out she was hoping I would break no contact to talk a bit, so we did, and then we stayed in contact for the following days.
The issue is, we ended up sexting again. During that time, she kept telling me how much she misses me but that her feelings about the decision didn’t change. She told me that when I come back to her hometown, we could see each other. I agreed to it, but the more I think about it, the less it sounds like a good idea. I still love her deeply, and I feel like hooking up without strings attached, or being in a relationship with someone, is a horrible idea. I think it would just make me feel worse.
I don’t know what to do. As much as I want to be with her and find that physical connection I’ve been longing for, the emotional drawback would hit harder if I find out she doesn’t want anything to do with us.