u/Actual_Assist_222

Why? Why do I have to put up with my so-called "friends"? Why do I have to wear a mask of kindness to avoid being torn down, while their horrible remarks are applauded? Why is their ignorance and immaturity the truth, when my words are a bad joke? Why do I have to watch my every move and word to avoid being rejected? Why do I have to carry the daily stress of knowing that if their mood is even slightly low, they'll cast me aside? I'm fed up. I want to tell them. To scream at them. But I'd rather endure fake friends than go back to the loneliness I was in before. I'm a fake version of myself...i can only remember the last time i was ever feeling free with someone...