u/Acrobatic_Spot5711

Stats:

3.8 GPA

20 Year old Arab/NA Male

~3.4 Weighted HS GPA

Sophomore ~59 Credits

Requesting Aid.

Part-time retail job, roughly 25 hours a week

member of one club, somewhat involved

The only person in my entire CS cohort to land an F100 Internship this summer

Mainly wrote my essays about my growth as a college student, my ADHD diagnosis, and how my relationship with my brothers improved through my own reflection on myself. I also wrote about how my current institution lacks research opportunities, and I often spend all my classes being the only one to develop a relationship with my teachers (cliché, I know). My final point is that I surround myself with people I can teach and learn from to land internships, since my current school is a commuter school and participating on campus is costly and time-consuming(My father lost his job senior year of high school). I am more involved at my brother's T5 Cs school than I am on my own campus.

For context, I was in a long term relationship and myself (M20) and my ex (F20) had been together for around 2 and half years. We broke because she had moved away and a lot of factors truly but the main one that really messes me up is she really specified that she needed someone who can plan and was a “man”. There was a lot of hurtful things said to me through the end of that relationship but what really stuck was the lack of masculinity I felt because I really struggled with “manly” tasks such as planning and being able to read her emotions properly. I really struggled during arguments with just explaining my actions likely due to a coping mechanism I developed going undiagnosed for 19 years of my life. When I was diagnosed we had a discussion and it felt like the last straw in my relationship because I had realized I could never be what my ex wanted relationship or not, I was wondering if anybody had any tips or words of encouragement because I really do want to be okay in a long term relationship but right now i’m convinced that isn’t possible for me.