u/Acrobatic_Author_723

I was speaking to my therapist about how it feels when I engage in BED behavior and she said it sounds alot like depersonalization. Is this anyone else experiences whenever they get into the mindset of BED?

I noticed I started getting those feelings of depersonalization post binge even, like when I’m driving (very terrifying), while I’m work, or just randomly. They last from a couple hours to even a couple days. And sometimes I don’t even eat during those moments.

The more I stay sober, the less the “BED demon” feels like depersonalization. Which means for me, it’s easier to ride the wave. But I’m just realizing that the majority of my episodes of BED have been in a state of depersonalization 95% of the time.

Is this what everyone feels like when they’re binxing? Or is there an association between the two? BED has caused me great anxiety so I feel like that definitely has to play in part of it.

Thank guys! Sending everyone love today whoever needs it!💌

I’ve seen a lot of talk on this about people cutting sugars and only eating natural sugars like fruits and sugars in natural carbs. What’re you guys experiences with that and how that has/hasn’t helped with BED?? If so, what are you allowing yourself to eat that is “sugar free” and/or completely staying away from??

I have been dealing with BED for about 2 years now. I feel like it’s ruined every aspect of my life.

Some background: mid 20s F. I got on birth control in my mid teens and gained a lot of weight from it but I wasn’t self conscious about it, I just know I was bigger. During my freshman year of college, I started to cook at home and lost like 30 pounds in a couple months but it wasn’t on purpose it just happened. I noticed my life was changing by the way I viewed myself, my love for life was vibrant, I started to get a lot more attention (not important but it was noticeable different now people treated me), and life just felt right for the first time ever.

Fast forward a year, I lost my period (shocker lol) and that’s when I started restricting and it completely backfired by me developing BED. It’s been 2 years since BED has been happening and I’m completely different. More self conscious, less confident, purposely isolated, not motivated, and I truly believe it’s because of BED. I’ve tried everything since these eating patterns started. I’ve been nutritionists, joined anonymous support groups, reached out free/low cost therapy, contacted my university for behavioral health support, created and maintained a 3meal a day plan and I still binge. It breaks my heart.

I have a follow up with my PCP and I want to request vyvanse for BED. The last time we talked about meds, they wanted to put me on antidepressants (Zoloft). But I don’t feel comfortable taking antidepressants because I truly believe my BED causes every other side effects. Whenever I’m sober from BED, everything in my life improves but that’s difficult a lot of the time.

I would feel more comfortable talking meds specifically for BED rather than antidepressants.. I feel like the docs won’t trust me with my previous history of restricting but I haven’t done that since I started binging, nor do I want to. I just want to live my life free of thoughts of food and start focusing on more important factors of my life. Any advice for talking with my PCP or stories about Zoloft and/or vyvanse?