u/AcrobaticHawk251

I’ve been dealing with a confusing, intrusive fixation on a guy who feels like a rival. It’s more than admiration or a crush — I find myself wanting to be him (not just be with him), copying his skills, stalking his online presence every day, and making sexual/romantic fantasies about him in my head. I both hate and crave him, and I compare myself to him constantly; his moods and habits feel like they leak into me. I also feel detached from myself a lot, and this fixation is making identity and reality feel blurry. Has anyone experienced a mix of limerence, envy, and identity‑fusion like this? What helped you break the cycle or set boundaries without feeling empty afterwards?