Scared of getting cheated
myself 27M
I have accidentally found extramarital affairs of two of my very close family members. Both married woman, whom i thought is happily wed and stay too lovely with their husbands.
Even now they stay too happy with their partners and also continue these affair stuff too smoothly.
I am bit orthodox. In a way i was holding all my feelings till i am settled and ready for marriage.
Now i am on my own financially. My family is looking for matches for me.. But i am bit scared of what if my partner can be like one of them.
I am not that extrovert. I have social anxiety issues. But i think i can stay loyal. I think my behavior is kinda unattractive, since i seems too cold in real life, may be my partner would be bored of me. Those two womans who cheated have husbands who is very opposite of me. Energetic, extroverted and very lovable. So even if they have been cheated, what would have happened to me.
I always dreamt of having my own family. But now everything is changed. I am very confused of future. My work nature makes me unavailable often. Every stuffs in my life feels like they are against me. Now everything feels odd.