5 years ago I stopped all drugs. Gave sober life a fair chance. In some ways I grew, have a stable job now and in some ways achieved parts of my dream.
In other ways, I am a lonely sack of shit. No friends. No family. No one to depend on. It's been like that the past 2 years anyways. Moving countries does that I suppose.
Anyhow. I was able to get 6 tabs. Plug says 280mcg. Idk if it's real or not. I've tripped plenty back in the day but didn't since.
I feel like I need to. I mean I'm so stuck in my life that I think I just need to see things from a different perspective. I also always loved LSD. It made me feel connected.
The thing I'm wary of, when I say I have no friends I truly mean it. I went through my entire contact list and I can't find one person to tell anything to. When I used to trip, my favourite part was talking to my friends. Telling them weird things I'm thinking about, getting to know them, maybe tripping together. But now, I have no one. And I'm going in alone. I'm okay with being alone for the most part. I suppose I'll be fine after the trip as well, I mean I know I'll come out in one piece and that's how I used to calm myself and let go to the drug back when I used to trip. I just worry that I'll be a bit sad. That I'm alone. That I'm wasting my life being alone. It is sad I suppose. And in some ways that's why I'm tripping.
Where I'm at now in life I'm so sad about having no friends that I don't even want to make any new friends. I don't put in the effort at all. I'm hoping the drug can show me again what it means to make relationships and leave your mark on someone's heart.
Anyhow, I'm taking 1, maybe 1.5 tabs on Saturday morning. Will clean the place before and make a nice tripping environment. Some Yankee candle or something idk.