I keep having owners who don't want to pay for two drop ins to feed their pets. Instead, they have me come once and give them 2 meals worth of food (which the pets eat all in one sitting). I feel awful, that can't be good for them
Relying on SNAP for a short period before I start my new job next month, but apparently that is at risk because the clowns lost my paperwork. Not to mention I received this before the due date?
My whole life I've been mentally ill, and I've been "strong." I've done the work, sought out support, did CBT/DBT/ANYTHING that could help me improve. What do I have to show for it? Doctors who don't believe me. Meds that don't do enough. Therapy that can't help because I seem to have tried EVERYTHING. No proof that I've been fighting for my goddamn life every day just to appear somewhat normal/functional. My body is healthy but my mind is just getting worse and worse because every last hope of help is getting extinguished.
My days are severely shortened because waking up takes several hours, my brain can't process time or directions so I'm constantly late to wherever I want to go. Everyone says I'm normal. Every doctor thinks I just need to try harder. What is the fucking point? I'm sick of not being sick enough. I'm exhausted doing damage control. I wish I knew how to stop doing the "right" things because THEY'RE NOT GETTING ME ANYWHERE. I can't do anything. I've got no quality of life. I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired I'm so fucking tired of everything. I'm angry and I don't even know what to do with it. I don't know what else I can do.