It Spirals
I am a easily triggered individual.
Avoiding my triggers whenever I can is therefore the obvious solution, the issue is that part of me forces me to seek out those triggers over and over again.
My mental wellbeing has been declining for a couple months, every now and then I start putting myself back together just for that other part of me to ruin it all over again.
It's almost like I want to punish myself.
Does anyone know anything about that kind of stuff?
Ps:I have already seen a psychologist, however she rejected me claiming I was "Stable Enough" and "Not a serious case" wow doctor, you apparently didn't think that your autistic patient would Mask when he talks to you because of course he would, that is how I react whenever I talk to someone unfamiliar.
PPS:Had to use some flair, the others didn't really fit but I guess I do punch myself in the face when I have a meltdown so I guess there is some violence.