I never wanted to be the person to ever come on the internet for help, it makes me feel even more pathet but I have no one and I just wanted advice.
I'm currently living with my partner who is 30 and he promised me I was his world, stupid of me to believe I know, I left home because my family never treated me humanely, I thought maybe this person really cares about me and wants me to thrive, I was so wrong, not only is he in love with his mother and sister which makes me want to throw up and put a O through my head. But he wants me to be okay with this, I feel sick I can't get out of bed, I have no family to help because as I mentioned I ran away from that abuse, I was ș3xualy assaulted my whole adolescents, first time was when I was just 4, l've made it this far on my own, I don't know why I was so stupid to believe that this person who I thought knew and loved would center everything around us and building a good healthy future, I was so wrong and now I'm crippled in bed with only one way out and I don't know if I can go through with it, I feel so alone idk what to do.