u/Accurate_Look9982

Something bad happened today—a coworker died. I worked just a few meters from him for about three years. We talked occasionally, but we weren't close. I found out about it when I came in for my shift. Everyone else reacted the way you’d expect, talking about it and processing the news, but I didn’t feel anything. No shock, no sadness—just information. I kept working like normal and it doesn’t feel like I’m suppressing anything either. There’s no delayed reaction, just nothing. I'm not sure if this is normal or if something’s off. Has anyone else had a similar experience where they just felt nothing?

Hey everyone. I'm Anatoly, 28, from Kazakhstan. I'm posting here because we have zero communities for this in my country. Local forums are dead. ​Here, SPD is basically an unknown diagnosis. Doctors usually try to diagnose you with depression or something more severe. Most people like us just live as "quiet loners" and never get the right help or even a name for how they feel. ​Personally, I've felt disconnected for a long time. Zero emotional resonance. It’s like I’m permanently in "spectator mode," watching life from the sidelines. Masking at work just to look normal is exhausting