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I discovered recently that he was going there for the past few years and we are married for 3 years. He swears it’s just a normal massage without any sexual context. And he just didn’t want me to stress for no reason that’s why he didn’t tell me. Of course it’s a lie, I’d never believe that he is really going there for a normal massage. I’m kinda speechless, very angry and hateful rn. I live in the foreign country, I have no one here, I have nowhere to go, I don’t work, I have no car, no money. I’m just lost and I don’t know what to do. I can not let it go. It’s eating me alive knowing that’s it’s been happening for that long. Before our wedding I made it clear that I’ll never ever forgive cheating and it will be immediate divorce. Now I don’t know what to do, how to act. Did anyone go through stuff like this? What should you do on my place?