I'm in a hard spot right now. My child's father who I've been with for a little over 3 years now makes me absolutely miserable half of the time, the other half our days are only okay. Good note, he's a good father to our son and our son loves him to death..and he just recently got his license back and got a delivery driving job. Bad note, he only works maybe 3 days a week, I provide for our family, work 50 hours a week from home on top of caring for my child while his dad mostly sleeps or is in the other room while I'm trying to juggle work, taking care of my child and on top of that I have to cook and provide every meal for my son. I work night shift so during my shifts I'm also resposible for making sure our son gets to bed, has a routine with teeth brushing and diaper/pajama change. He takes no initiative even when he sees I'm stressed out/panicking that I may lose my job from being away from my desk too long.
But when I try to express my feelings to him, he just flips it and tells me maybe I should mow the lawn, or do the things he works on (the yard, taking the trash out, laundry cleaning when I can't keep up). He always acts completely exhausted like he's done so much but I'm constantly drowning in tasks. He also complains that I'm on my phone too much, meanwhile he's constantly gaming/on his phone and xbox too. I'll just never understand.
All this to ask, am I dealing with a narcissist? How does he constantly make me feel guilty for "having an attitude" or "being on my phone too much" when I'm the one who provides nearly every single thing down to my sons clothing and food. I'm tired of him always being able to flip things like I'm the bad guy and I'm also the one who always ends up apologizing. I'm so exhausted with living this way! And to anyone else who is dealing with/has dealt with similar, how did you get through it or finally say enough is enough?