so for context i’m a teen, and i’ve been making characters for 3 years now. i’ve slowly made more over the years and i am not exaggerating when i say i think about them every day. I have no idea why, ive never been able to come up with a real answer, and it’s finally started eating away at me. I have never claimed to have any form of DID or OSDD.
i’ve always enjoyed (what i think is) pretending to be them and acting like them, and I sometimes ’channel’ certain ones when i need to do stuff (for example I have Ace, whose extremely productive and a workaholic, so i use him to gain motivation for school) etc etc. I’ve struggled in the past with self harm and in that time, the only thing that helped me was channeling one of my characters, jackie. I have no amnesia and have always been able to control who I want to ‘be’. there’s about 15 as of now, and i fully consider them to be a part of me and real. I understand that this probably spouts from some extreme escapism and trauma (i have diagnosed severe generalized anxiety disorder) and something i do to self soothe and regulate myself. but i’m getting desperate for an explanation and to see if there’s anyone else who does this? I understand it probably isn’t OSDD but i figured the people here might know more about my symptoms.
please, i need an explanation or something, or even just to explain this to someone and hopefully get some advice.
-harvey and co