u/AccordingFun1146

When I was in second grade my friends had a club at recess and whenever I tried to ask about they would run away but they eventually told me about it, it was a “sex” club. They just talked about sex because a member had seen her parents having it. She told me to go home and look up porn on my tablet so I did and I ended up getting addicted for the next couple years. This girl would always go to the bathroom with me and climb underneath the stall and watch me pee, sometimes she would touch me and say it was fine because we were both girls. I don’t know if it really counts because we were both 7 years old. Anyways a couple years later my younger brother started to slap mine and my sister’s butts and it made us uncomfortable but then he started getting bolder and groping us down there. He doesn’t do it anymore and he’s autistic so I guess he didn’t know any better, and he’s younger so I don’t know. I still feel like he could do something worse though, I’m scared of him. I also feel like I’m blocking something out from my childhood. I was always really sexual and I would masturbate atleast once a day from the time I was 5 years old to now and I can’t really remember much of my life, I’m scared that I’m forgetting something but at the same time I don’t know if I want to remember.