Not discussing the really bad days.
I'm 6 months into therapy and only really beginning to trust my therapist. I've revealed a few major life things recently and some near the beginning even before trust was there, in a kind of urgent disclosure thing.
There's big stuff I've mentioned that we didnt go back to yet and I guess I'm just waiting for her to bring it up again.
What I'm starting to notice is that in between sessions when I've had a particularly bad week or have recently started having mild thoughts of suicide (no plan, just the feeling of having had enough and not wanting to be here) as the week passes and I feel a bit better, I go to my appointment but don't mention those times. I will maybe talk about the stressful events of that week but I guess I feel that once the moment has passed, is there any point saying "I felt really down 4 days ago but I'm a bit better now".
I am bad about talking about and admitting my feelings, so not used to just saying "I was really upset and sad this week" out of nowhere.
One of the main aims is had for starting therapy is to stop bottling things up so much, so I dont know why when I now have a space where I don't have to do that, I still under report what's going on for me.
I think I'm maybe still in the very slow and cautious storytelling stage where I'd rather she learn my big life events and see the 'structure' of me before I reveal how I feel at the moment. I often don't know what to talk about at the beginning, unless there's been something big happen that week.