So I’ve been in no contact with SP for over a month now and I know manifestation works but I’m finding hard to let go like how do I do that?
I know this works because well I feel like I subconsciously manifested the end of my relationship. This idea really puts me down but I’m learning to accept it.
I also randomly manifested a ladybug I know super random but for some reason after the breakup I thought/knew I was gonna see one and I did in the most improbable way. I was just walking look down then it was right there
This ladybug made me realise that I’ve been manifesting all my life.
This to say that I believe in manifestation and I know I’m connected to my SP
The thing is I can’t stop thinking about him… no matter what I’m doing even when I’m distracted he will pop into my mind
I just miss him all the time
I know circumstances don’t matter but the way things ended still hurts a lot and I’ll I want to do is talk to him.
It hurts because we both failed yes what he did was fucked up but I also should of done more
I felt him pulling away from me and I never asked him what’s up I just gaslighted myself into thinking everything was fine while clearly feeling something was off
So yeah Im stuck in the feelings of hurt by his actions and disappointment in myself
I’ve seen all the manifestation videos on YouTube and I understand the idea of living in the end and knowing the relationship I want is already mine
(Btw I’m forcing myself to stop watching manifestation content on YouTube because I’m becoming to dependent on it and all the different information was starting to make me overwhelmed)
But how do I set the intention of the manifestation and let it go if he is all I can think about?
When I try focusing on myself it makes me feel good but not for long because in general distractions don’t really work because he’s always there on my mind
The technics that work for me is visualisation as it’s something I’ve apparently been doing all my life the thing is I think I take these visualisations wayyy to far and end up crying while doing them
Because of this I’ve visualize every possible scenario of him coming back and apologising
My other issue is I’ve always had very vivid intuitive dreams
I’ve literally dreamed of people I end up eventually meeting
So every night I’ve been dreaming of him and the dreams are so real that when I wake up I’m so sad and can’t help but cry
And I’ve tried telling myself when I wake up the “we are together” affirmations but I still cry
When I wake up I’m reminded by the last words he said to me “we should go out separate ways”, “the language barrier is making me exhausted”, “I’m not ready for long distance relationship”, “just let me go”
This hurts so fucking much and letting these words go is hard because they contradict everything he said in the beginning
And he’s always in my mind because I’m having so many unfinished conversations with him.
Also before he came into my life I think it’s important to mention that I was in the best place ever
I was happy and felt at peace and he complimented that
I want to focus on me and improve my life (find my peace again) but idk I had envisioned a future with him like I was ready to move county for that man and now it feels like starting from zero again
In conclusion I’m scared, hurt and overwhelmed with information.
How do I truly live in the end when I still feel pain/sad? How do I let go of all these feelings? How do I ignore circumstances? How do I manifest him like I manifested that ladybug?