How to keep going?
Hey there, Im a 18m and I just have one question, how do you keep going?
A little backstory, during my earlier teen years I had a rough patch where I skipped everyday of freshman and sophomore year to go and steal alcohol and cough syrup and drink it all in a forest, sometimes even in the pouring rain because I just didn't see the point of it all. I hit a rock bottom after od'ing in said forest, and having to be taken to the hospital to where my mother (had no idea of any of this, besides the school skipping part mostly) was beside me not even distraught just severely dissapointed. I quit all of this after therapy and rehab, and after sophomore year(which this happened in) I quit traditional high school and started a virtual program, where I earned honor roll every quarter and eventually got admitted into one of the best STEM academy's in my state. But something never left me, whats the point of it all? I guess my point for this is post is what keeps you going? I ask this because I cant seem to find a good reason, all the accomplishments I achieve do nothing to me, they don't make me happy at all. I try to find things to have hope in like a future family, a success story, religion, anything that might make me happy. I took up playing guitar and learning French, all these other hobbies looking for something. And day by day I live in this mindset of where am I heading and why am I even heading there. Sometimes I just sit and wonder whats it all for? I know we all wonder this but what is it really all for? Whats supposed to keep me going?