Anyone that got out of or is currently fighting out of a depressive rut, how are/ did you do it?
Hi there, I’m trying to get my life in order like I’m sure most ppl here are as well. I feel like I haven’t truly been myself for a long time, even going back as far as into my teenage years. And even now, at 24, not only do I feel like I haven’t accomplished shit, I feel like I haven’t been genuine for so long, I genuinely struggle to find what feels like me and what doesn’t. Sometimes I feel like I have enough self awareness and done enough self reflection to feel like I have a good grasp of who I am but none of that matters when I apply it to the real world and not just what feels right in my mind. My social anxiety and adhd hold me back from making genuine friends, and it doesn’t help that I have a bad tendency for people pleasing or wanting to be viewed a certain way, which is a big contributor to how I feel. I’ve been trying to look within more for answers, I just can’t tell what feels “right” and what feels performative. I’m still a kissless virgin, not that it’s the end of the world but it’s definitely an insecurity of mine. I still struggle with keeping any promise, I have a porn addiction, I’m out of shape and trying to get back into martial arts(which I know is a genuine passion of mine), and just struggling to take care of myself and stay busy. I wanted to get back into creative shit like making music and art and fashion but I’m even questioning if that’s something I feel genuine passion for. And it doesn’t help as I watch my parents get older and I’m still working shitty retail trying to debate if I should give college another shot since I couldn’t get into an apprenticeship union. Sorry that was a lot longer than I realized. I just have so much fuckshit on my mind and have been this way for so damn long, I’d just like some insight and maybe some tough love on how to get out of this shit. I know that the last thing I should be doing is sitting on my ass doing nothing, I just don’t know how to approach getting out of this funk and finally feel like I’m making progress with my life.