u/Accomplished_Rush186

I’m a graphic designer by trade and would love to offer more clients web design packages (front end development like squarespace or wordpress etc)to expand my income streams.

In the past, its felt clunky and I feel like I was doing something wrong or missing a step. Like with one client, I told them the available subscription options for a shopify site then put in my payment info to get things rolling or had to put in all my info so it could be easy for me to get confirmation or verification emails while working to keep things moving quickly. It felt clunky to hand all over at the end of the project and I know there has to be an easier way.

Are there site that yall find best for client work like this vs others? ie. Squarespace vs wordpress etc

Okay this may bounce around a bit because I haven't ever posted a question like this so try to bear with me 😅

I (32F) have always felt like a pretty sexual person - lost my virginity fairly early, always making sexual remarks or having a mind that's 'in the gutter' - but over the past few years I feel like that sex drive doesn't really take form or takes really extreme dips without me noticing in the moment. Almost like I'm all barn and no bite. Like, there will be some days I feel it deep in me that I crave to be touched and other days or even weeks that go by and I couldn't care less about it and I just enjoy the company of the person I'm with. I'm pretty active and feel like these swings are more than just the usual period symptoms I have read about.

Currently in a beautiful relationship with a 28M who is a very sexual guy and I have a hard time feeling 'on his level' when it comes to pleasure/sexuality usually. I knew his personality before we started dating and for the most part was able to match it but I'm not sure what's changed because this seems to be a trend for my body (loosing the sex drive over time). He'll make suggestions or try to be sexy with me and I sorta panic and have no idea what to try next or feel bad that I'm not craving his body like he is mine every minute of the day.

We are very open with each other but when I talk with him or event other friends about some sexual topics I realize my experiences have been pretty vanilla - all things considered. What I mean by that is he knows things he wants to try or what his body likes or what he wants me to do to him and he loves the emotional connection of physical touch. Me on the other hand - I have never reeaaally explored sexuality in myself or with someone else so I struggle with the moments that demand my to think about what I want done to me or things to try or understand the emotional connection side of physical touch is really challenging.

Admittedly I'm also a really bad over-thinker and have a really difficult time slowing down or relaxing in general, some manipulative relationships that have burned me really bad, and just trauma growing up...

Not sure if this plays a part at all but I should note that I am a 32 white female who has grown up in predominately white areas that are a bit stale and I'm seeing a latin guy who has grown up in very diverse areas with many types of people, cultures etc. My family has never really openly talked about sexuality or those topics but his family is very open about it. I feel a little silly for not being able to have taught myself this stuff by now but maybe my environment never felt like it was an option?

Does anyone have a similar experience or suggestions on how to move past this? Sounds stupid but maybe even suggestions on how to even learn myself better sexually? How to open my mind and allow myself to feel good? Thanks in advance for any help 🙏