I Fell in love with my second cousin (Again)
I Fell in love with my second cousin (Again).
Recently, I felt a flock of butterflies going through my stomach that made me see the world as vibrant as ever, accompanied by a very upbeat song that reminded me of something from my very vibrant and exciting life from the past as I saw a glimpse of this unique but familiar girl, whom I assumed to be my childhood friend and second cousin. As soon as I saw her, I experienced what felt like a love at first sight moment, suddenly being lost in my thoughts, frankly remembering a beautiful sunset with her by my side as we climbed up to the top of a guava fruit branch that's fairly small enough to be climbed by a 3rd grader, which is us.
She gives off a sense of familiarity and the need for an emotional connection with her. As I was a very misunderstood child when I was very young, I totally remember her being there for me despite my reckless, anti-social, delusional, grandiose, and chaotic behavior. She literally fits all my standards for a soulmate with her beautiful, innocent-looking face; calm energy; being smarter and probably wiser than the average person; and having a similar interest to me. I thought at that moment that she was the one I'd been looking for my whole life.
She represents the moon, as her elegance and beauty contradict even time itself, and the sun, as this girl whom I met 12 generations ago has not changed even the slightest bit of her bunny-like ball of sunshine aura. I guess I'm deeply attracted to her now due to the fact that I miss my 3rd grade personality, which is a very perceptive, happy, loves adventure and exploring the world, respectful, people-loving, I-love-life thing.
I really missed her, though. I'm really sorry for her for my very distant interaction and not appreciating her, as she has a very rare personality nowadays for girls. So in the heat of this moment, I would like to tell you one last thing.
Thank you. Thank you for being my friend and trusted classmate back in the day. I really enjoyed our bond when we were both young. Now as persons who are slowly approaching professionalism in our lives, I'm looking forward to our next time seeing each other again.
I also recognize that she is my second cousin, and because of that, I cannot pursue these feelings, even though the emotional intensity in this moment felt very real.