It's been 2.5 years I am not able to get over my ex. I cannot even fathom the thought of being in relationship with him because he cheated on .I cannot do it . But I still think of him every day . I still feel that love for him once a while .
I miss him, I miss our bond. I wish we never dated and just remained friends just so I could be around him.
I want to block him but can't even do that . I knew I could never leave him so I created scenarios where he would be forced to leave me because I always felt as if I will never be happy with him.
But I am.not happy without him either. I tried dating but I feels absolutely nothing even when I force myself. Even when I go away .I've moved cities and there's no way we will ever meet . I made sure that we will never have a way back because I was deeply hurt by his betrayal .but I just cannot fully move on either .