I have a 5 year old daughter and she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. My life feels complete. I hated being pregnant and got really bad postpartum depression. The whole experience fucked me up for nearly 3 years.
However I think about my daughter when she grows up not having anyone who went through life with her. I am one of 4 kids and my siblings are amazing and I love them so much. I feel so selfish not doing this for her because I can’t handle it?
I am also surrounded by pressure from my husband and my family.
I have tried to explain to my husband my concerns and experience last time. We have had many discussions but he still can’t reassure me he will be there for me in the capacity I would need.
I don’t know what advice I am looking for, maybe just a space to get it out in a setting with people who understand.