u/AccomplishedSock6361

i have developed a bad alcohol issue for the past few months that everyone around me has noticed and i recently went on a 3 day bender and didnt sleep or eat and just drank the entire time and fucked alot of things up and was hallucinating and was going to end it all. I get obsessed and attached to people and am currently really struggling really bad with my moods, one minute im very neutral or empty to feeling like ending it all and hating myself to feeling extremely anxious. i have chronic emptiness and dont feel real to the point i put myself into risky or bad situations just to distract myself and feel something and all of this is affecting relationships and stuff.