My dad still makes me call him daddy at 17 and i hate it after realising abuse
I’ve always felt weird about it but now, being more aware of him touching me as a kid, i just feel even more gross about it. He literally gets so pissed if i call him anything other than daddy and i know he just really likes having a sense of control or whatever, but it makes me feel so icky. I don’t talk to him as much anymore and i’m kinda glad but i also still love him and i don’t want him to hate me
Like just something about him knowing such intimate places on me irks me so bad. I don’t believe he’s a pedophile, just that he honestly liked having that control, but the daddy thing makes it feel so much more uncomfortable. I know its a normal name but yk, i don’t know how to get over it.
also sidenote why wont my brain just get over ittttt im so bored of this stupid obsessive loop