I hardly know how to put this into words, but I haven't felt a passion for anything in so long, and I don't know how to find it again. At 21, I see the people I went to school with moving forward with such a drive. Half of them are pre-med and the other half are in trades they love. I can’t help but feel a searing jealousy for that 'want' they have. They have their goals, but I just feel detached from the people I know and the things that I do like no matter what I'm on autopilot and I just want to need something in my life.
I’ve worked a multitude of jobs since I was 14 and done everything I can from traveling to cooking to bodybuilding but nothing sparks anything in me, I have had multiple mentors and shadowed many positions and restaurants on several continents but still I feel like I’ve been static forever and nothing will change. I feel corny to post this for strangers on the internet and I probably sound a little contradictory but it’s nice to just say it since I don’t have any confidants in my real life. I hope you all live beautiful lives and find the passions that I'm still looking for.