How do I tell my mother that I have a deep-rooted resentment because I only feel conditionally loved?
I am amidst repairing my relationship with my parents (which I wish I didn’t have to) who are apparently very fed up with me and keep randomly disowning me on a random tuesday because I am ‘disrespectful’. I am an 18 years old female, whom have repeatedly said sorry and humbled myself because I am known for having a smart mouth, which sometimes I realise is excessive therefore I feel accountable for a lot of times. I am unfortunately still living at home because I am a part time student and working part time simultaneously and cannot handle the crazy bills of adulthood atm, making me unable to escape the repeated cycle of accidently getting disrespectful and owning up to it. I plan to escape my house because I dont like the idea of me being in an environment where I feel forced to be in, where I am forced to be ‘loved’ because I live here and is the only one doing chores apart from my mother, which might be where my deep rooted resentment came from. Once every full moon I get asked why I act like that and idk how to tell them without getting disrespectful again. I know I might need therapy, but any wise advice?