Being skinny and still being ostracized despite the stereotypes
For context, I was always fairly average-looking. I was underweight for most of my life and now at 29 I’m on the slim side of a healthy weight.
Whenever I see discussions about how skinny people have it so much easier socially, I get sad because I grew up very skinny & I was the lowest on the social totem pole. The (neurotypical) overweight kids were low, but I was even lower. I would try to hang out with them but they would run away from me like I was plague so I ended up sitting alone.
I spent a lot of time isolating myself because I was socially traumatized. I finally decided in my mid-20s to try to make friends. I went to probably 50 different events at a variety of different groups over 2 years before I made a friend. Most communities excluded me.
Oftentimes I would go to events and end up crying afterwards because I was excluded.
I’ve made a few friends at a local pride center but aside from that, the only communities that were welcoming to me turned out to be run by known sexual predators who were trying to prey on me (as well as their enablers).
It feels like I’m invisible unless someone wants to exploit me sexually.
I’ve never been in a relationship or kissed anyone.
Anyway, what’s really bothering me lately is that people argue skinny people have it easier socially. I am coming up on 30 now. I’m worried that as I get older, gain weight, and age (therefore becoming less conventionally attractive), I’ll be even more invisible and isolated.
Can anyone relate or offer words of comfort or advice?