So I’m just gonna try to tell the whole story of how we met and where we stand as of now. Bear with me I’m not the best at story telling lol
So basically I met this guy when I went out drinking one night with co workers a month ago. We were at a nightclub to see a house DJ that we like. As I’m there dancing with my co workers I see him enter the dance floor with a group of friends. He caught my attention because he had a decent sized septum piercing, and because of the look on his face you could tell he wasn’t having fun or just didn’t want to be there.
I kept catching myself looking back at him, like I was trying not to but couldn’t help it. Then at some point I lost him in the crowd and didn’t really think much of it. A little while later though, I saw him again, this time with a drink in his hand. He looked like he was starting to loosen up, kind of weaving and bobbing to the music it was kinda cute. It was pretty crowded in there, people kept bumping into him and he eventually got annoyed and moved to the other side of one of his friends, which ended up being right behind me lol.
I kept looking back at him trying to get his attention kinda subtly dancing towards him a bit, and eventually he got pushed into me. I just shot my shot and started dancing on him, and to my surprise he actually started dancing with me for like 20 minutes. Eventually I heard one of his friends say “let’s go get another drink,” and I kinda just invited myself along lol. From there we ended up spending the whole night together drinking, dancing, singing, and having fun!
I got his Instagram before he left and really wanted to text him but I was too scared, but funny enough he ended up texting me first! But just to say he had my ID lmao(I asked him if he could hold it for me). So we met up for lunch the next day so I could get it back, and that’s when I realized how calm and soft spoken(and cute) he actually is. I asked if he was talking to anyone and he said no, he’d just gotten out of a long-term relationship and wasn’t really looking for anything right now. He said he’s only been single like 3 months and usually doesn’t go out like that. If he does it’s usually just because he gets dragged out by his cousin.
On complete impulse I asked if he’d be willing to talk with me and he said “of course, but just friends right?” which kinda threw me off a bit it felt like a gut punch lmao. But Since then we’ve hung out a few times and every time I hang out with him I like him more… which is annoying because he really is exactly my type, but you can tell he’s just not in that space for a relationship. I try to be a little flirty/playful but he doesn’t really respond to it.
To wrap it up, last night he kinda got annoyed because I was being flirty and touchy. He didn’t say anything in the moment but he texted me later and was like “I know what you’re doing… I already told you I’m not looking for anything, I just got out of a relationship that took up a quarter of my life and I’m not in the right headspace for this.” And yeah… it kinda sucks because he’s literally everything I’d want and I don’t even know what to do.
I know I should probably just leave it alone, but I also don’t really want to distance myself… like what if he changes his mind later? idk.
I’m just sad, I feel like life isn’t fair sometimes lol. Every time I find someone I like they’re never emotionally available. At least this guy communicates well, I’m just frustrated is all.
Thanks for reading :)