u/Acceptable_Past5037

I got married and moved to Kuwait, and honestly, it felt like my life completely reset. Starting over in a new country isn’t easy you have to rebuild everything from scratch. For my husband, though, it wasn’t new. He had already been here for almost a decade. He had his job, his routine, his friends, and he knew the place well.
For me, adjusting came with a cost, but I still tried. Finding a job was one of the hardest things. I did get something eventually not my ideal role, but enough to keep me occupied and give me some sense of independence. Then pregnancy happened, and I had to take a break again, which set me back.
When I compare my life here to how it was in India, I honestly feel like I was happier back there. Kuwait is a good country in many ways, and I appreciate what it has given me, but I miss the ease of life I had before. Still, I kept trying to make things work.
I also want to be clear I don’t hate my husband, and I’m not trying to compete with him. I understand he already had his life here. But it’s hard not to notice the difference. He has his parents, his colleagues, and a social circle—even if it’s small, it’s still something. He has a sense of belonging.
I don’t.
I’ve struggled to find a proper job, I don’t really have friends here despite trying, and living with in-laws can be challenging at times. When I look at the difference between the life I have now and what I thought it would be, it really affects me. It slowly pushes me into feeling more and more low, and honestly, sometimes it feels like I’m slipping into depression.
There are moments when I seriously think about moving back to my country. I know the financial aspect is better here, but emotionally, it’s been really hard. I miss my old life so much that sometimes all I want is to go back.
It’s been a long time, and I still feel like I don’t belong or haven’t been able to build a life for myself here.
I don’t really know what to do anymore.

So I got a dream that, you know, I saw there are like billionaires who were making sacrifices, you know, and this is a very weird point because I don't even search all those things. And I don't know how much, like, I sensed this thing, my soul was watching the whole thing, what was happening, you know. And I was the one who was observing each and everything. So I saw, and these were all white men, you know, and they were all wearing black, like black suit, full black. And even the head, there was this one guy, he was the head of this particular ritual. He even sacrificed his own older son. I guess this guy's age must be around 25-27. Let's take it as maximum 30, okay? And I could see they're making three men sacrifice. And in this ritual, all of the men were there. Like almost 25 to 30 people were there, you know. And the weird point is that there was this one guy, he was just a random guy. And I guess the other body was also random, you know. But I couldn't see the third person's face, but I saw these two people's face, like, Like one billionaire's kid and the second one was this random man. So the random man was basically, these guys were in beach or something, and this man just literally just passed by them. You know, nothing else, just passed by them. And they killed him and they made him sac- like, you know, his body sacrificed because of that. And this was the man who was the head, he was the one who sacrificed this guy, who said this thing, you know, to sacrifice this man as well. Because how dare he could pass by my, uh, like, how dare he could pass by him, you know. And I don't know what happened. The men who, like that, the random guy, you know, they caught him. His soul was watching this, you know, so basically these were all, this was in some square shape, like a small swimming pool, and these bodies were there. And just so you know, like all of these three men were fat people. I don't know. And they all were laughing. And also the kid, his son, you know, he injected some drug or something on him, you know. And so basically he couldn't feel the pain or anything. And they burned them alive. How I'm saying alive? That because the guy's soul who was watching this thing, you know, and he was just thinking, how could this thing happen to me because the guy, you know, the random person they sacrificed, he's not a bad guy at all. I could sense the thing that he was a very jolly person, sweet person, and he was in ultimatum shock that how could these people kill me randomly for no reason, for no reason. And his soul wouldn't able to believe that. And I was feeling very sad. I was feeling like I want to, like, I was almost crying. And I was seeing this thing, everything, that what the fuck was happening. And it was utterly shocked. And how do I say this, even all of them were laughing. The whole, it was, it was not a room exactly, it was kind of a hall. It was kind of a big hall, but it was like one particular room, you know, get it what I'm trying to say. And the thing is that, that the theme of the room was also kind of like, you know, fire, like burning. Like when you see the fire thing, right, you know, like burning. So and they were burning and he was sacrificing his own son as well. And they all were laughing. They were not feeling any emotion or anything. And that guy's soul was behind them and he was watching that how could these people laugh at something like this. And I was the one who was watching all of them. They couldn't see me or sense me, but I could sense, see, feel everything what they were doing. And I don't understand why would I even see things like that.

So I got a dream that, you know, I saw there are like billionaires who were making sacrifices, you know, and this is a very weird point because I don't even search all those things. And I don't know how much, like, I sensed this thing, my soul was watching the whole thing, what was happening, you know. And I was the one who was observing each and everything. So I saw, and these were all white men, you know, and they were all wearing black, like black suit, full black. And even the head, there was this one guy, he was the head of this particular ritual. He even sacrificed his own older son. I guess this guy's age must be around 25-27. Let's take it as maximum 30, okay? And I could see they're making three men sacrifice. And in this ritual, all of the men were there. Like almost 25 to 30 people were there, you know. And the weird point is that there was this one guy, he was just a random guy. And I guess the other body was also random, you know. But I couldn't see the third person's face, but I saw these two people's face, like, Like one billionaire's kid and the second one was this random man. So the random man was basically, these guys were in beach or something, and this man just literally just passed by them. You know, nothing else, just passed by them. And they killed him and they made him sac- like, you know, his body sacrificed because of that. And this was the man who was the head, he was the one who sacrificed this guy, who said this thing, you know, to sacrifice this man as well. Because how dare he could pass by my, uh, like, how dare he could pass by him, you know. And I don't know what happened. The men who, like that, the random guy, you know, they caught him. His soul was watching this, you know, so basically these were all, this was in some square shape, like a small swimming pool, and these bodies were there. And just so you know, like all of these three men were fat people. I don't know. And they all were laughing. And also the kid, his son, you know, he injected some drug or something on him, you know. And so basically he couldn't feel the pain or anything. And they burned them alive. How I'm saying alive? That because the guy's soul who was watching this thing, you know, and he was just thinking, how could this thing happen to me because the guy, you know, the random person they sacrificed, he's not a bad guy at all. I could sense the thing that he was a very jolly person, sweet person, and he was in ultimatum shock that how could these people kill me randomly for no reason, for no reason. And his soul wouldn't able to believe that. And I was feeling very sad. I was feeling like I want to, like, I was almost crying. And I was seeing this thing, everything, that what the fuck was happening. And it was utterly shocked. And how do I say this, even all of them were laughing. The whole, it was, it was not a room exactly, it was kind of a hall. It was kind of a big hall, but it was like one particular room, you know, get it what I'm trying to say. And the thing is that, that the theme of the room was also kind of like, you know, fire, like burning. Like when you see the fire thing, right, you know, like burning. So and they were burning and he was sacrificing his own son as well. And they all were laughing. They were not feeling any emotion or anything. And that guy's soul was behind them and he was watching that how could these people laugh at something like this. And I was the one who was watching all of them. They couldn't see me or sense me, but I could sense, see, feel everything what they were doing. And I don't understand why would I even see things like that.