Pavlov’s Dog
Hey everyone. I have a problem that is a little too specific. I had been a porn addict since I was 14 up until last year. I can manage now mostly. No extreme content, I can go on not masturbating for days, whenever I finally decide to watch porn it is mostly pleasurable etc. But I have a problem and it is a big one. I can only ejaculate and stay erect fully in just a single position.
Now this sounds weird, funny even; but I found this out 3 years ago and since then, I cannot get it out of my mind especially when I am having sex. I feel utterly useless. Apparently, all these years, I have trained my body to ejaculate and be aroused in that one position. I am lost. This has impacted me in ways that I cannot explain. Coupled with the size insecurity that I have from watching porn, I have come to the conclusion that not interacting with women in a sexual context would be best for me, but things happen and whenever they do, I die mentally a little more. Any advice on how to proceed with my life on this front?