I am married since 6 years and mother of son 1 year. Me and my husband were apart due to job for one year. We never had passionate secs in marriage , I was 25 and he was 27 when we married . Frequency of intimacy was very low since marriage like once in week or once in 2 week . We never had sex more than once in a night ;neither 2 consecutive nights !!
Just few months back , my husband randomly shared about his gf before marriage (after 5 years).
His gf cheated on him and they were apart. but after split they used to meet in OYO. Everything happened before my marriage that I am sure . He didn’t tell me this but my overthinking mind found everything.
I shattered , I felt our cold intimacy is due to that . To improve this , we [mainly me ] discussed each and every detail. Intimacy seems improved but everything feels force. I can’t unheard past of my husband .
I even want to get rid of this marriage as I feel unheard, Underestimate and not chosen. I feel frustration , disappointment and resentment.
I feel my husband never liked me he is here just for society and money and I am convenient option.
I want to leave this marriage due to all this shit; above all , it is ALWAYS me discussing this and my husband just listens and consoles me. I feel begger for bare minimum physical demand . I can’t divorce and I can’t even be happy here.
Please share your opinion.