I am exhausted with myself
I am preparing for few government jobs and in this preparation phase I am feeling too lonely due to isolation. I am emotionally distant with everyone around me like I can't express my problems in front of anyone even family . I had few friends but I lost touch with all of them . Now I am very selective about my friendships like I just can't be friends with anyone. So , I vibe with very few people but over the time I struggle a lot because I don't want attachment with anyone because in my life I was always keep giving to others that now I am scared of getting attached with anyone. I cry about this loneliness but at the same time anyone's presence triggers my emotions and attachment style. I think I don't know how to handle emotions and I am working on it .