As the title states, I, 27M have a gambling addiction and ive recently decided to fight it. However ive already racked up some payments on which i am late, including some payments regarding the house me and my gf 27F have.
A few years ago i was also struggling with the gambling, however with help of my gf and a small loan to pay everything off (the loan is also paid off by now) i manged to overcome it.
A few months ago however i relapsed, and fell into the same dangerous pattern. My gf has already stated before that the gambling is a massive dealbreaker for her, which i am very aware of. Except i am still very.. very stupid enough to gamble, hoping to win more.
I want to come clean to her, ask her for help in recovering and fight for us. I am also very afraid that she will break up with me and i will end up homeless (the house is in our name but if she breaks up i will probably be leaving) I love her very much, and i hope to spend the rest of my life with her (we have talked about marriage before) and i know that what i did was very, very dumb and stupid and probably completely breaks her trust in me.
How can i start the conversation where i admit and ask for help?
Please dont attack me for my stupidity, my own head is doing that enough already. I just want to turn it around, face the consequences and hopefully get a second chance.