Is there any way to make it "prettier"?
I've been feeling really insecure about my vagina ever since I've hit puberty. I'm scared that my clit is "too big", and on top of that I have an “outie” that’s darker in color, even though I'm pale. I know that bodies come in all shapes / colors, and that I should accept myself as I am, but this has been a deep insecurity for a long time. What makes it harder is that I rarely see bodies like mine represented anywhere especially in porn (yes I've looked into the vagina gallery - not exactly sure how it's called - and not even there is a clit quite as huge as mine). I've started to feel like mine is "abnormal" or unattractive - disgusting even. Even though I don’t think that about other women at all, I genuinely find all vaginas beautiful, regardless of color /shape, but I somehow still struggle to like mine. This has made me really anxious about intimacy with my boyfriend. I'm scared that if I feel this disgusted with my body my boyfriend will feel the same way. We're both young and really inexperienced and I know he's been battling with a porn addiction in the past, which I know, mostly only shows a very specific and "unreal" version of what vaginas look like. That makes me even more worried that he’ll be surprised or even disgusted by mine. I don't want to feel this way, but I don't know how to stop comparing myself to bodies on porn or fearing rejection by my body. I just want to feel comfortable in my own body and not worry about my boyfriend. Anytime I look at myself in a mirror I have to cry. Is there any healthy way, which could lighten up my vagina, maybe the area around it or make my clit smaller? I really need help, thanks for any advice!