u/Academic_Ad_8133

Okay, so this is my first post in the community and I’m honestly not entirely sure I’m even doing this correctly, so feel free to correct me if not. My mother is 50 years old and is trying to lose weight. Shes not very tall, and honestly isn’t even very big, definitely no more than 160 lbs. She has had 4 kids and has some stomach fat from it, but it’s honestly not that noticeable to me or really anyone around her. She is a stay at home mom, and is constantly mad or upset at me (female, 19). I am a full time college student and I also work a job on the weekends. Pretty much every day I come home from school or work and she’ll yell at me over something trivial, such as leaving hair in the sink or leaving my socks on the floor in my room but I normally just clean up and ignore her insults because I know she is diagnosed with BPD. Overall, I don’t really enjoy being around her, and feel like I’m walking on eggshells around her all the time. Well, last week she told me to go with her out of state so I can get her prescription diet pills, and I was gonna go until I realized she meant that *I* would be the one getting the prescription and then giving the pills to her. I personally didn’t want to do this, because not only is it out of the way for me and i’d have to take off work, I struggle with my weight and have pretty severe body image issues and didn’t really want to be in that kind of environment in the first place. Not to mention paying for gas and the visit, and I kinda just feel weird about giving prescription medicine to someone else. I feel it’s important to mention that she already takes her own prescription pills and has plenty of other medications she takes alongside some other things I feel isn’t my place to mention. I come here because ever since I said no, she’s been even angrier with me and has been kinda making my life hell. I am no longer allowed to see my friends, or do anything outside of school or work without her getting mad and calling me selfish for ‘doing things for others but not her’. She frequently tells me that I’m an awful daughter, and that I’m selfish, but it really feels different now, and I’m kinda conflicted on if I actually am being selfish for saying no. Any help or advice would be much appreciated, thanks!