My parents are suffocating me with how angry they are all the time
I realized recently that my parents aren’t as good of people as I used to think, despite the fact that I love them very much and I don’t know how to navigate these complicated feelings. They’re still together but can’t stand each other, they talk shit about each other to me, and other times they completely ignore me. My dad has a flexible job where he can often work at home and my mom hates her job, so she resents the fuck out of him for that. Despite him being the main bread winner for our upper middle class family she’s always saying how much she wishes he would get a “real job”. He has a real job, she just wants him to have to suffer along with her at a 9-5. She’s also such an angry person all the time, like he can’t do anything right. She was asking for an Apple Watch for Christmas so my dad got one for her, after receiving it she said she didn’t want it anymore and got mad at him for not getting her what she wanted??? Also, she’s obsessed with my younger brother to the point where it’s comical, he gives her little to no attention cuz he’s an angry teenager and she eats up every second of it. Today my grandma was telling us a story about a couple from her church who are so in love with their baby, my mom asked if it was a boy or a girl and after my grandma said boy she said “that’ll do it!”. I always knew he was her favorite but to hear her say it in front of the whole family made me irate. I know this post makes it seem like I really don’t like my mom but my dad is 100 times worse honestly. He has terrible anger issues and a serious screaming problem. I just don’t know how to feel, and I’m feeling extremely guilty for feeling this way on Mother’s Day of all days. They’re just not the people that I saw when I was a kid, and I honestly don’t want to be anything like either of them.