PTSD from caretaking
Trigger warning? Hello everyone. I (26F) was a caretaker for my pap from ages 13-22. The REAL caretaking happened from ages 17-22, where he was in major decline from Alzheimer’s. I worked full time with him, seen things I shouldn’t have seen. Everything from changing him, wiping him, trying to prevent sores, him wetting the bed, everything leading up to his death and even seeing him starve at the end. My aunt made me put clothes on him after he was passed away. Basically I felt like I was pressured by family to take care of my pap all the way to the end.
I started therapy and taking meds last year. I had anger issues, bad dreams, couldnt stop being pissed off about the whole situation, was also dealing with issues from a sexual assault. The therapy and meds help and I dont think of it during the day, besides when I sleep.
Anyways…I keep having vivid dreams about my pap that wake me up in a sweat and leave me shaken for some time after. These dreams consist of me taking care of him, him wetting the bed, him throwing up, convulsing, dying at times…very vivid dreams about what his body and him looked like. Anything I can do? Does this go away? Thanks.