cannabis and social paranoia
hi all,
i appreciate any input you may have, please share your stories if you have any.
recently at parties and functions with close friends, ive become extremely distant where i zone out and get trapped in my head while i go more emotionally numb as the night continues. i end up extremely irrationally paranoid, mistrusting, almost like theyre all out to get me, whenever they laugh it must be at me, i no longer contribute to conversation out of fear for being judged or different. ive had a history of addiction with heavy daily smoking but recently have gotten it to smoking once a week, but this irrational fear is new to me.
i experienced 2 cannabis induced psychosis episodes late last year and was generally a paranoid smoker, but have become less paranoid while smoking up until recently.
this isnt who i am or want to be, i feel this has deeply effected my friendships and as a result i will quit smoking, for those who may have experienced similar situations or have any opinions, how long did recovery take and what did that journey looked like?
i appreciate any input, thank you