I Am Just Wondering
I know this is a long shot and maybe nobody can tell me. I'm kind of new to all this Adoption stuff as I've never been through it before. I had a pretty toxic, tortured life growing up starting from grade 2. I moved away when I was 18 and cut all ties to my maternal side of the family. Unfortunately, not thinking how fast info spreads on Fb I excitedly posted about my pregnancy when I was about 6 months (or so) along. My maternal "family" found out and to make a long story short my son was taken from my husband and I.
I have been counting down the years with such anxiety and heartbreak until he would be legally an adult so we can look for him. I realize that 1) He may not even have his same name given at birth 2) He may not even know he's adopted. However I still keep praying I'll find him.
We were told years ago when he turns 18 we could look for him. I've been trying but not getting far. Being I don't know if his name is still the same just makes it harder.
My question though is I read on a Fb group that I can fill out some Adoption Disclosure thing but I'm not allowed until he's 19. I'm so confused Am i not allowed to look now that he's 18? How come it's not until he's 19 that I can look?
My heart will never be whole again until I can find him and hopefully reunite. I've had to miss everything from 1st words to 1st school days etc. Miss him so much.