**TL;DR;** : I am 18 M call me MV I have a friend 18 M lets call him Am whom i belive is my good friend but recently things are pretty much hurting me and i want to know what i can do to make things better. so here is full story-
i am introvert and deep thinker i tend to take time to get into people but when I get comfortable i genuinly start caring for them like i will do things which would cost me more than 12 hours like making a birthday wish website just to make them happy idk but it gives me a dopamine and i also don't expect same from them cause its just Mv thing to do this they are not bound to do the same!! so thing is I have this friend Am we know each other from 6 years from 6th grade but i belive i started knowing him better when we started sitting together in 9th grade. i genuinly think of him as good friend but recently 3 months ago he told me suddenly that I said some things to him in 6th and 9th grade and he will never share his pov beacuse i have diff pov and it gives him insecurity that whenever he shared pov I give my pov which make him feel dumb ig idk what on earth he tthought like that I loved to give my opinions to him cause he gave me his i never ever thinked he sharing any ideas is making me feel dumber but i am guy who is into philosphy and stuff so i thought if i hurt him by anyways i should say sorry and try to work on and yes we did worked out solutions but that time he was in his angry huff mood and never listened my part of story and never even asked again lets keep that aside ; other thing is like i have never heard him sorry anytime and most of time he assumes hes right in any conflict in any situation where as i am generally more grounded and whenever i feel like other person might not like it i would talk to them cause whats better than getting things right. so now you got enough reference now what are the things which are bothering me -
1 he is not opening since 9th grade- i had even told him on his mouth that i think he is not fully open like i am ; he probably know everything about me and he is the only one whom i had shared that much ; see i like emotional depth and deep freindship rather then surface talks but he is not opening and whenevr i say that he is like i would not and not opening is good i should rather accept it ! oh yah accept it that whom i consider my best freind is not even able to open fully to me
- he dont know how to talk / immature - he behaves like the most mature person on earth but is totally chidish 😭 like who on earth tell your freind that your other freind is better infront of them yesterday we were having chat about random topic he suddenly wrote that his other friend p is more relatable and could have got the point in 2 mins and i was like blank what reply i could give i wander then after 3 mins he send dont take that msg seriously and changed topic idk how you all people would react but someone like me who thinks of him as best friend got hurt like 100 knifes in my heart i would never compare my friend infront of him 🥀
3 he is emotionally dumb i had told him many times i think of him as my best friend but he just ignores the text (emotionaly ones) i always share something; anything which i would love him to see but he hadnt done that in 4 years 🙂 i had send him hundreds of movies songs and he hadnt even shared more than 4-5 ig
4 gym incident since we both were planning to get itno gymn after 12th grade i thought it would be good idea if we can go together cause in college we would be seperated most of people get diff colleges thorugh merit based examination so i texted him that i am also thinking of gym he didnt invited me yup when i told him howz it if i come in eveining he will aslo go in evening he said bad idea and then after this incident 1 day after he told his other freind in front of me that when he is joining gymn here gain i was just blank idk how to react 😶
5 when in 9th and 10 grade if anyone mocked me for any reason he never took anystand but laughed but if anyone tells him anything i dont talk to them i dont like person / assholes who get energy from putting down others
6 i had always told him everything about me but when i ask about his crush he just bluntly said no to me it just make me feel wierd i am so invested in the damn thing and they cant even talk openly its not like i am asking his fortune but just openness!
if you read till end then you are eligible to answer your viewpoint also ifby anymeans you want to know more before answering you can ask me questions which owould also give me more sense of clarity
(1 more thing eng aint my first languge pls forgive my eng 😅)