Im a completely broken man
Guy in his late 30s here. Im completely lost.
In January my relationship of 3 years ended and im completely broken. Its now mid may and the pain is still as raw as it was the day I left her house. Its just not getting any better.
Looking back I know the relationship wasn't healthy and a breakup was inevitable. But that isnt taking the pain away. This girl taught me i was worthy of love and I felt love for someone in a way I never thought was possible.
Ive recently got into the shape of my life and now get a healthy amount of female attention but theyre just not her. Even to the point where I had a girl in my bed thinking a rebound would do me good, but all I could think of was my ex when this new girl was going down on me. I had to make her stop. Im literally turning down some incredibly beautiful, lovely genuine women just because whenever I start talking to someone or engage in any kind of flirting my head just thins of my ex.
The pain is mental, emotional and physical. I just can not function. My work suffers because of it. My social life suffers. I just cant leave the house.
Ive never been this heartbroken. Ive had my fair share of relationships but this is worst pain ive ever felt.
I am not the kind of person who would reach out to strangers on the Internet but im literally completely lost.
What do I do