I (19F) am 5’4 and i rarely weight myself, but the last time i did which was April 16th, 2026 i was at >!83lbs!<.
I have always been underweight my whole life, (genetics/fast metabolism) but never really had problems eating until i started smoking THC/weed around 15 years old.
Also around that time i was eating fine even without the substances. Around the ages of 16-17 im pretty sure i developed an ED and depression from isolation and always being on the computer, (not trying to self diagnose) again i have never went to the doctors or anyone to seek help, even as of right now and trust me i really want to, but im not sure if i have the funds for that right now.
It was very bad around the summer, I would always skip meals starting with breakfast because i would wake up around 2pm so i had the thought of “this isnt breakfast, its too late”, then i would eventually skip lunch but would still eat junk food. When i started to skip dinner my mom has noticed and eventually begged me to eat when shes going to eat.
Now around the ages of mid 17 and early 18, i’ve noticed my period being very irregular. Ive never used a period app to track it, but I wouldnt have one for maybe 3-4 months im not even sure anymore. My last period that i remember having was in the beginning of february 2026. I have not had one since.
Then i’ve noticed my hair falling out, my nails being brittle, and can see a fuck ton of my bones just sticking out (hips, collarbones, ribs, wrist) and my mom really noticed that. I would even hit them when i walk around which woild give me bruises. Then i told her about my periods and she was shocked but then ignored it later, she always says “you never eat anyways” as if its normal for me to rarely eat and yet to look for help to see whats wrong with me. I know i can seek the help myself now, but both of my parents are very iffy about doctors and think im actually doing something healthy and good for my diet.
I would only eat fruits and a variety of vegetables. And of course my parents think thats healthy but im noticing its not enough for me to gain weight and feel normal.
When i smoke weed now, I could eat anything within minutes but if i take a break, i could go all day without eating and not feeling hungry. Sometimes my stomach would make noises but my brain is saying im not hungry. That would make me feel really weak throughout the day.
I know I have to eat, but it got the point that if i try to force the food down I get nauseous every single time. The smell of food would even make me nauseous.
I do plan on visiting my local doctor, but i just really needed to rant on how ive been feeling for the past years and came to my senses.