u/Able-Manner1075

I've been in a constant state of depression for past 3 years now I m 19 y/o and it all started when I was 16 I regret all the desicion I took and I can't really tell anyone, everything I m trying to do is just not working out , I've literally tried for everything yet nothing in my life is working out I am getting rejected from colleges and I feel like such a disappointment to my family and my parents , I don even know what I am supposed to do and it's just everything is messing with my brain , not once in my life have I got what I wanted , not even once. I don't have any good friends all of my high schools frnds are in clg except for me and I have no idea what to do