So I mostly had bad sleeping pattern, mostly like to be by myself, like psychology, philosophy,... I don't belive much in god, fate, ghost or others things, I mean kinda but in my way let say. Did some drugs but had bad experience with most of them. I'm 27 and more aware then others for my age.
Sometime around 4 years ago I had a big period with horrible sleeping pattern, with a lot of weird dreams and sleep paralysis, I just lived with it. And well there where also a little ghost girl kinda living with me (until one day I dream of her happy and saying goodbye).
I had a lot of weird dreams and didn't thought much of them... Until I notice when traveling that I got a weird deja vu effect, just thought of it as funny, it happen randomly sometimes. But now I'm in a big travel and got thos dreams, all of them happening, and making me remember the details and what I thought back when I had the dream.
The weirdest part is that, the dreams always happened the same way even tho I knew I had dream it. Like I thought I could change things but not at all, it's like watching a movie and understanding, why I had thos thought or did that. But I couldn't change anything or wouldn't idk, even got to "just follow the scrip it's your fate!!!"
There is another post on reddit about "my dream come true" which are super interesting and make me wonder if that was multiples life line or unchangeable fate. (again the dream influenced what I lived but still was the same as the dream) How can it be the same exactly?!!! It was like this impossible time travel loop that becomes true. But always bug me since it's hard/impossible to make a perfect first loop.
Ngl I'm scared and don't know what to do, please if someone understands explain me. Thos experiences felt the same as I matrix when Neo ask the Oracle (I forgot) but she respond that you are here to understand why you took this decision.
And one dream not realized that bug me, is me on another planet beach kinda orange, purple, yellow, at peace with some life form and friends.