Did i cheat this time?
Me and my ex broke up last August due to the reason that she accused me of cheating and spread false news that I cheated, yet clearly I did not. She didn’t hear my explanation; she just left me there, alone.
After a week, I contacted her. I went to her place to seek answers—why she did that and why she didn’t believe me. We talked, and eventually I told her that I would court her again and try to bring her back. I felt like a fool for doing it, yet I was the one who was clearly hurt.
We talked again, acting like a couple, yet she kept telling me that I am not her girlfriend anymore and that we don’t have a label. Every time I asked who that girl on her IG was, she always said it’s not my business and that I shouldn’t be bothered because we are not girlfriends. I was hurt by the words she kept saying: “I am not your girlfriend,” “Ano ba kita?” It came to a point where I built a lot of resentment and hate toward her.
Then, I talked to another girl, yet I had no plan to pursue anything romantic. I just wanted to rant about my breakup with my ex, and at the same time, I wanted to shift my attention away from her because I was clearly hurt and wanted to move on. At first, I already told this girl that I had not moved on from my ex and that I was not planning to enter any romantic relationship with anyone. However, I noticed that when I backread our conversations, I somehow said things that were engaging and could be easily misunderstood, but I know to myself that I had no plans of entertaining this girl on a different level.
My ex saw this and was outraged and angry, and kept saying I cheated. I kept defending myself that I did not. I already explained to the girl that I was trying to get my ex back and that I miss her.
I shouldn’t have pursued her or taken her back again and again when I already had feelings I couldn’t fully let go of. I blame myself because I should have just left her alone instead of letting her get hurt because of me. I feel like I ruined things, and I genuinely regret how I handled everything. I just want her to be happy now. I know she probably hates me, and I understand why.
Do you think I cheated on her? This time, what are your thoughts about this?