I went out with a few friends yesterday to a hookah lounge and. For context I have never smoked anything before. A few of them also brought some vapes on the way. Out of curiosity, I tried it and hit it a few times. It didn’t feel that great whilst doing it but I did it for a bit anyways for the vibes and hit the hookah. I didn’t like the hookah at all really, but the vape felt good, especially the feeling after.
I knew it was bad but I wanted to enjoy myself for a bit. My breathing felt more restricted, my mind cloudy and I tried to go to the gym after but couldn’t even go through a single set without feeling lots of fatigue in my muscles.
After the experience I felt an attachment to vaping. I couldn’t really explain it but it made me feel calm and sorta gave me a rush of dopamine just thinking about it.
Today I went out and bought myself a vape. I hit it a few times in the local park and it felt similar to yesterday but it wasn’t really doing it for me. I had a rush before it hit it, so eager to puff it but it kinda felt mid again after doing it. I had the same symptoms that I did yesterday, but now I feel myself becoming addicted. I have a whole vape on me now and I have complete distrust in myself especially when it comes to addictions. I want it to become a full on addiction especially knowing people who are hooked onto vapes and have been doing it for years and a lot of them told me not to start but I’m scared im falling into the same hole.