u/Abdulaziz_randomshit

hello guys, today I went to therapy because I had over 2 weeks of constant emptiness and burnout plus I have a serious stage anxiety and people-pleasing tendencies and the conversation dragged on to possible neurodivergence and daddy and momny issues, she (the therapist) was sweet and considerate.

when I came back home my dad knew I was in therapy, entered without knocking and kept yelling about "drug abuse" and threatening me to disown me and kick me out of the house (19M majoring in electric engineering and jobless rn) it was a genuine mess and I froze and didn't respond.

later at night he came back (without knocking of course, or maybe he knocked lightly and came in regardless and I said: "come in!" to give myself the illusion that I gave him permission, idk) and kept giving me anecdotes of drugs abusers, gave me anecdotes of me being the "perfect man" (when in reality it was me masking and acting, can I really say no?) and told me that I am fine and just overthinking.

he then put me in front of the dining table (my mom and siblings were there) and asked me to present my college presentation, I was frustrated because of course I have no problem presenting to you guys and not class and my judgemental teacher (I mean, not really? I'm almost never vulnerable or excited around dad and/or mom for some reason, and my judgemental teacher feels similar), I presented three times and he kept praising me and saying that I was just doing great.

I'm now exhausted from presenting and dealing with mom and dad constant nagging, their compliments don't feel legit and extremely uncomfortable, and not sure if I feel like I was delusional for asking for therapy because "now I'm doing better" or they gaslit me, I'm SERIOUSLY confused right now and need guidance