40 M4F UK/Anywhere Looking for a light in the darkness
Hi,
Sending out an S.O.S. Into the dark abyss like a flare, maybe it will catch the right person's attention and you will reach out and brighten my life and I, yours 🌟
Hopeful in finding someone special out there, I don't mind if its near or someone far that starts as a LDR / online and grows to something more. I don't mind chatting here or somewhere like discord / voice calls if you can interpret a broad Scottish accent 😊.
I am and have been in a pretty lonely place and a big factor for that is the lack of someone to share my life with, the little things and the big things. I feel like I've been ignoring the loneliness for too long and its now become a big pit that I need to emotionally circumnavigate to make it through the day. So here I am, somehow optimistic in finding someone and yet the creeping feeling of trepidation lurking at the back of my mind. "Hope Springs Eternal," and "It's The Hope That Kills You." two quotes summarising it perfectly
What I'm looking for is someone that is single and looking for a long term monogamous relationship. I'm looking for a kind, caring, affectionate and down to earth person. Someone that is emotionally mature and comfortable with themself and comfortable opening up to me and someone I can be open with in the same way.
I am from Scotland, as you may have guessed from having a Scottish accent. 177cm tall, 90kg, lightish brown skin dark hair, brown eyes, close cropped facial hair.
I work for a bank and been there for close to 15 years, but its an easy enough job and the pay is decent. I'm not a materialistic person, I'm able to afford what I need and the job I do is currently safe from AI and mainly safe from outsourcing in an ever increasingly uncertain time. I live close to my family, though I don't really get along with most of them, I love my niece and nephew more than anything and like to spend time with them when I can, taking them to the botanical gardens and play park, feeding squirrels and birds or just playing games.
I'm a left leaning and open minded person. I'm agnostic but don't mind if my partner is religious or not, as long as they don't have any extreme beliefs.
I've never been wed and don't have kids, don't smoke and don't want a partner that smokes, I think its gross. I don't drink or do recreational drugs, I don't mind if my partner does if its light use/drugs.)
I'm introverted, bit of a homebody, very nerdy and a bit of a hopeless romantic. I'm an INFP, which does give a rough picture of the kind of person I am. I may seem withdrawn and unapproachable to begin with (major RBF), I like to get to know people before letting them in but when I click with someone I open up and very different when I'm comfortable with someone (maybe annoyingly so 😄 - in a cute way of course ...)
I consider myself a very kind, caring, affectionate, deeply empathetic (it's a gift and a curse,) and tender person. I love easily, always try and see the best in people and leave it to them to prove me wrong, giving myself as I can, a bit of a people pleaser. loving someone on a deeper level is a bit harder but something I crave. I feel jaded after too much heartache and I hate it. Would love to meet the right person to make me forget all that, someone that makes excited when thinking of our future together.
I show my affection with little things, and not big on over the top gestures. I'm a private person and I like doing small things that bring a smile to those that I care about, just for a special smile from them. I 'm very physically affectionate with my partner, lots of hugs and kisses and cuddles! Just sharing quiet, intimate moments just enjoying the other person's presence, whether that's cuddling up watching something, listening to music or just sharing our random thoughts and just feeling comfortable in the silent moments.
I don't take myself and try not to take life too seriously. I'm sarcastic, sardonic, self deprecating and generally have a dark sense of humour - I'll joke about most things My humour has been called into question, but forget what they say, I AM frickin hilarious!
I'm the kind of person that will gently poke fun at those closest to me, never intended as mean spirited. I think its important to be able to laugh at yourself after all, taking life too serious is ... well, no fun! If you can make a joke at my expense and make me laugh, you're a keeper! Although there's not much I won't laugh at.
I love music, I cant state that enough, not able to play an instrument, I did try and was pretty good at the guitar, but couldn't afford lessons, sadly, but music is something I associate to a lot of things. I listen to rock mostly, but there's a huge variation. Starset and Mr Kitty being my fav and go to for cheering up, Bring me the Horizon, Aurora and Metallica being others I listen to a lot. I almost always have music playing. I tend to get nostalgic or build an emotional connection between music and a place, person or event and being a very emotional person, the right music can bring that out in me, Hans Zimmer's "Maestro" being imo the most beautiful piece of music I have ever heard, the 2nd half of that piece just makes me fee like the composer has captured the highest points of love and life in musical form 😇
Reading, I started reading a lot when I was around 14, as a way of escaping a difficult time in life. Growing up with Roald Dahl really got me into reading. I'm very much into fiction and high fantasy books with some astronomy and other miscellaneous stuff in there. I'm a bit of a dreamer and its really awesome to get to see what other people have dreamed up and created.
Going for walks and being amongst nature. I'm lucky in having two major city parks in relatively close proximity and nice places to ride through on my bike.
Gaming, I play on the PC and Switch when I have time to waste, maybe 10 - 15 hours a week. WoW, LoZ, Metroid, Xenoblade, BG are amongst my fav games / series. Love getting lost in games like WoW and Forgotten Realms with their own deep lore and mythology etc or exploring games like Skyrim or Cyberpunk 2077. Wouldn't mind meeting someone with a similar interest and playing co-op games with.
My motorbike, just being out, free, whether its commuting or riding through the empty roads in the small hours of the night or quiet weekend, riding through bordered by trees and lots of greenery when the weather is nice is incredible.
Learning about astronomy and the natural world, watching documentaries showing and explaining all the amazing things around us. Also interested in learning about ancient history, particularly ancient mythology. Scrolling though Flipboard finding random astronomy articles, like how gold is formed when two burnt out neutron stars collide, in the vastness of space, what's the chances of this happening?! Gives me hope that if gold can be formed with what seems like a infinitely miniscule probability, then maybe I can find that special someone in my life.
I don't really have a type or preference in the person I am with or if we share many hobbies. I could definitely get absorbed in your hobbies if its something you'd like to share and do together. You sharing something your genuinely passionate, excited and care about would be an absolute gift.
I have recently moved into my own place, furnished but not very much in the way of decoration, maybe you could help me with some interior design suggestions?🙂
If you've made it this far, then thanks for reading all the way through the storm of words and my flittering all over the place, you deserve a prize! If there is anything in that jumble that resonates with you, I would love to hear from you. Send me a DM, say hi, tell me about yourself. 🙂